noticing helps

Sometimes it makes sense to re-evaluate things. Take a second, float outside your own body and take a bird's eye view. Who are your friends? What do you see in your past? How's the future mapped?

Is this the way you saw it going?

NO? Then fucking change it. Life's too short to have people who aren't worth it sucking up your air.

Sounds emo - Not on purpose - It's more enlightened. Sometimes it feels good to notice things.

Day4 - YOGA

I thought yoga would be the easiest one, since I consider myself to be fairly flexible for a guy my age; wow was I ever wrong. I think it's just the combination of it being after arms and me trying to do it at 10:30 in the morning, but I'm having a real hard time with it. It's an hour and a half long, which I think I used to psyche myself out before even starting.

I did about 20 minutes of it and my arms started wobbling. I'm taking a little break to write this note down in hopes to regain some arm strength. Nothing like a solid 10 minute break. K, I'm going back.

No dice - Feeling too much pain doing this. I'm going to wait and see if Rick wants to do it with me when he gets home. That way I'll have a partner and we can watch for each other. Otherwise, I hope the force, along with the will to get jacked and flexible, is with me.

Day 3 - Arms and Shoulders

Wow are my arms ever weak. I had such a hard time with today's workout, and was about to even stop half way and just finish it next time. However, my determination seems to be stronger than my ego. I jumped down from 10s to 5s, which isn't a big surprise, as you can see in the picture, i have never in my life worked my arms out, UNTIL TODAY - I finished the workout. GO ME GO.

Breakdown:

• Alternating shoulder press - 10lbs=15 - 20lbs=8
• In&out bicep curl - 10lbs=17 - 20lbs=6. Too much, stick to 10s for now until i can do 12 or more both times.
• 2 arm kick back - 10lbs=12 then 8
• Deep swimmer's press - 10lbs=12 then 11
• Stimulation Concentration Curl - 10lbs=13 then 13 - perfect for where i am right now
• Dips - Knees Bent=20 - Straight legs=8
• Upright row - 10lbs=15 then 10
• Static Arm Curl - 10lbs=16 both times
• Flip Grip Twist - 5lbs=10 - 10lbs=2... Stick to the 5
• Seated 2 angle shoulder Fly - 5lbs=12 then 14 - don't think i was doing it right though.
• Crouching Cohen Curl - 10lbs=8 both times
• Lying Down Triceps Extension - 5lbs=15 - 10lbs=12

BONUS ROUND!!!

• Straight Arm Fly - 5lbs=15 both times
• Congdon Curl - 5lbs=20 - 10lbs=8
• Side Tri-Rise - 6 reps then 8 reps

My left arm is scary weaker than my right arm. Good old internet.

Day2 - back and shoulders

I decided I couldn't really keep making excuses if I wanted to succeed. So, I worked around not having a bar and did the back and chest workout. Let me tell you - I know now why it's my weakest part.

At the begining they were doing pull ups, which I figured a way to kindo f do it, but decided not to, and then Tony Horton (the instructor) called me right out saying that some of us may not even be able to do 2 or 3 pull ups and showed cheats to do them so that we can get to a point where we can, I decided then, that I would just try my darnest and hope that at 90, I can quote this paragraph and be like, HA, now i can do 30 no problem! We'll see.

I did fairly well, except, doing the back flies didn't feel at all natural and I was having a hard time finding a comfortable way to do them. I still did a solid amount I think. And I can't do the dive bomb push ups. I'll try them when I haven't already done a good amount and my arms are exhausted, but I had a hard time with them today, big time.

Anyways, here the summary:

• I did 2 sets of heavy pants with 10lbs. The first I did 15 reps and the second I did 16


• I did 17 reps of lawnmower with 10lbs. Then 15 reps with 20lbs. I'm sticking with 20lbs next time.


• I did 10 reps of back fly with 10lbs. Then 6 reps with 20lbs. I have to figure out if I'm doing it right, if not, stick to 10 or do 5 and get the technique, if so, stick with 20lbs


• I did a total of 25 pulls ups (10, 10, 5)


• 25 sit ups in one set


• A total of 95 sit ups


• A total of 86 push ups (BOOYAH)

Feeling really proud of myself, but I have an interview and it's super ugly outside, so once again NO RUN :(

Day1 - plyometrics

Today's card:

Plyometrics of p90x
25 push ups
20 sit ups in one set
50 sit ups in total
No Run

I was supposed to start off with back and chest, but I don't have the rubber band to be able to do the chin ups stuff, thank god, that's what I'm most scared of right now.

I wish I had a camera to be able to take pics daily, but my phone isn't working. I took it anyways and will be able to upload it when I'm done.

FOOD:

• oatmeal


• 2 sandwiches


• slice of pizza

DID YOU DRINK? yes

DID YOU GO OUT? no

MY GOAL AFTER 90 DAYS.

• Complete p90x


• do 100 push ups per day


• do 50 sit ups in one set


• do 250 sit ups per day


• Run full speed from 29 robinson, to the end of Strathcona and jog back
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• BE IN SHAPE

Just a thought

I'm done with this whole game I'm playing with myself where I think that I'm just this big slut and can keep hooking up. I really like the person I'm with right now, and he just told his roommates that he was gay just so we can hang out together at his place and at mine. When we first starting hooking up, he made it very clear that he wasn't ready to tell anyone for at least another year, because he didn't want me to go into whatever we were going into with the wrong expectations. But, now he's told someone, after a couple weeks, I have to think that means something.

I remember how hard it was to tell people. You don't know when to do it, if you do it all serious or a s a joke or as a given, or what not. The person reacts how they want, you have no control over that. It's nerve wrecking, but he did it, for me. I'm for sure going to see where this takes me as scary and as new of a concept as that is for me.